Wednesday 17 August 2011

Over Coming The Darkness




I'm Running, Running faster than any mortal can. I hear the sounds of the pavement pound away under my boots. The darkness is getting closer I can already feel the panic inside me swell. I hate the dark I always have. My mother told me once that even when I was a baby I would only go to sleep or be calm when I was in the light. I feel the evil envelope me. I dig deeper into the pavement trying hard to get out of the darkness' reach. My lungs are burning and my legs feel like they are going to breakaway but i know if I stop now then it will be the end of the world as we know it. Why does it have to be me that has to prevent it. I'm just five seconds away from collapsing and having a panic attack. I can not save the world rocking back in forth in the corner. I close my eyes trying to envision light. I focus on a memory of a gift that my father gave me. It was of an angel. He said he bought it cause it held a striking resemblance to me. Her hair was as icy blonde as mine and her porcelain skin gave off a silver almost white light. The night light always gave off the feeling of warmth and security. 

Shocking me out of my daydream i hear a woman cry.

"No!!!"  her scream is filled with pain and fear. The raw emotions make my eyes burn with grief.
"Crack!" her screams are now silent. I almost prefer her screams. At least her screams are filled with life and emotion. The silence is terrifying it is telling me I failed. The nameless woman has been sacrificed along with thousands maybe millions more. The want to give up is almost paralyzing. I slow my sprint down to just a basic run. The darkness is right at my heels. I almost let it consume me. I am not strong enough for this. Then like a mother calming a child I hear a voice. It was neither man nor woman it was like a mixture of both harmonizing together to soothe my soul.

"When Gaia's sun meets the moon and the ocean bleeds. The Darkness will swarm this world. Only you, Ashynna can save them."  Just that simple statement fills me with strength. With a new confidence I go searching...For him and that damned....

Beeep!

I jolt awake by the insistent buzzing of my alarm clock. My heart is still beating like a jack hammer and my legs still feel like they are going to melt or break any second. That dream was not like the other ones. This one was real..Too real. As crazy as it sounds I think that maybe it WILL happen. 

Darkness is coming and I think I'm the only one who can stop it.


Everyone wants to be something special. They just want to be remembered. Leave a mark to say that they were worth remembering. Ashynna, Was just a character I thought of. In my head I was her. I was special and powerful. I was the one that had a prophecy to fulfill. She was just one of my daydreams. Someone I wish I was instead of a boring small town girl. It took me awhile to realize that I may not be a future super hero but I can do something about being remembered. I do have talents. I can sing, act, write, and I can be a damned good mentalist if I wanted. I once had Sunshine convinced that I could see into the future. She was quite bummed when she found out I just predicted stuff with my little powers of observation. So to practice this craft I'm going for my PHD in psychology. Well, I'm starting of small and going for my AA in psych. But baby steps. In a way I was like Ashynna. She overcame her fear of the darkness in order to save the world. I am overcoming that dream world. To me my day dreams are no longer day dreams. They are something that's holding me back. Like a darkness enveloping me and not letting go. But I am going to fight the temptation to go back to that dream world. I'm going to stick with my reality and make it an adventure.

So, there is my first attempt of writing my old daydreams out. making them into a story instead of laying in my bed all day and pretending that it is actually me. I'm going to keep on writing about Ashynna. That is just the intro to what I promise to be an adventurous and magical story. If you have not noticed Ashynna is going to grow at the same rate I'm going to grow. She's me..

P.S.
 My real name is not, Ashynna..

Xoxo,
Daydreamer

Monday 15 August 2011

Start Of An Adventure

There are three things that are very important to know in life..
1.       Who you are
2.       What you want to be
3.       What you are going to do when you get there



I wonder how many people can answer these three seemingly simple questions.

How would I answer? 
  You see these questions are the reason why I am starting a blog. I have been reading a lot of 
blogs lately. 

The authors seem to find themselves in some way or another by just simple writing it out. 
Who are you? That question seems to run through my mind a lot.  Here is what I know.


1.      I am a 21 year old girl who lives in a teeny tiny town that seem almost non-existent.

2.      I am kind of obsessed with the color purple! 

My boyfriend Snickers says that it is more of an addiction.


3.       3.  I love making lists! I actually have a dream journal that features all of my lists. Do I finish 

these lists? Hell to the yeah!  

4.       4. My boobs are huge! This is not me boasting this is just a fact. Any girl out there who is envious 
of women whose boobs are the size of watermelons I am going to let you in on a secret. Big boobs 

hurt like hell! They wreak havoc on your back and they always get in peoples ways.  Not to 

mention how everybody seems to stare at them more than your face.  I do not get why people stare

at them I mean it’s not like they are going to start dancing. So people please have some respect and 

just look into my eyes! 


5.      5..  I have an awesome best friend named, Sunshine. Is that really her name? You ask in

bewilderment? No, it is not. Sunshine is her nickname.  Sunshine is completely obsessed with

the Bobster (Bob Dylan) she literally knows every lyric to all of his songs! She is a bit of a sharp-

tonged person. Not many people can handle her on going wit. A good person to compare her to

would be Rory’s mom off of Gilmore girls. Her boyfriend we’ll call him Prince Dexter. Why are

we going to call him that? Well, for one he is a very private person and would not in anyway

appreciate him being talked about by name. Plus, Sunshine thinks he looks like a dexter. Don’t

know what the hell is a Dexter? GOOGLE IT! Back to the point.  Prince Dexter is a very smart

person. Does he go to school? No! Are Sunshine and I badgering him to get his head out of his

ass and apply to some classes? Absolutely!


6.     6.  I am really addicted to Fanfiction.com. Is this a known fact about myself? Nope!

7.     7.  I am taking classes online to get my AA in Psycology. I have a uber list for this section. I will go 

  into more detail about what I want to do later on.

Now, if you actually read through that list did you notice something? I never really got into the

“who I am” question. You know why? Because in reality I have no clue! I am still trying to figure 

out those three important things. I have no idea who I am and what I would like to be is kind of 

still in progress . Where am I going?  I really have no clue. All I have is several opened roads. 

Maybe I’ll just take each one to see where they’ll take me. 
I am a daydreamer. My world is all in my head. Growing up I created a world full of magic, 

adventure, and love.  At the age of twenty-one I know I need to start getting back out into reality. 

So I figured I need somewhere to put these daydreams so next post I’ll begin with showing you a 

little bit of that world with a mixture or reality. Should be a fun adventure!

Xoxo
Daydreamer